Below are the 5 most recent journal entries recorded in mists_of_avalon's InsaneJournal:

Thursday, April 24th, 2008
5:30 pm	for the_muse_awaits One must say Yes to life and embrace it wherever it is found - and it is found in terrible places.- James Baldwin I agree with everything in this statement,except for the part where it say life is found in terrible places. I've managed to build a life for myself in New York City and none of the places I've found myself in have been terrible. Well,if you want to count school,but now that I have Chloe and Ali,it's not as bad. I like my teachers since they let me take college classes and do outside assignments. I suppose if you forced me to,I'd tell you home is a terrible place,at least when dad's relatives are around. When it's just him,it's not so bad-He and I clash and nothing is ever good enough because I'm not more like my sister,but I know he loves me,which is why I let it go. His relatives are an entirely different story. No one forgave him for leaving his wife and marrying mom,so I'm just a stranger who lives in their house as far as they're concerned. The fact that I have no father only makes them judge me more. What on earth i there for me to embrace with people like that? I may not know my biological father,but I don't need to. It's not necessary to have two parents or be married in order to have a child,nor is it necessary to get married in order to validate your commitment to someone you love. I go to college parties and have done weed and X before,but it was only a few times. I guess that counts as going to terrible places to embrace life,but considering I don't have a habit,nor do I smoke cigarettes,how terrible can it be? o_O Current Mood: awake (Comment on this)
Monday, April 14th, 2008
10:54 pm	April prompt #8-A mystery wrapped in an enigma A mystery wrapped in an enigma. Well,I'd like to think I'm mysterious and sort of an enigma,but it depends who you ask. If you ask Professor Hamilton,he'd definitely have stories to tell. ;) Seriously,though...no one knows me,except for maybe Ali and Blake(As if he'd let me call him that outside his normal office hours). Blake believed in me and my potential when no one else did an Ali...just gets me,period. I hate most of the kids in school,especially Nikki and Francis. They are SUCH stupid,pretentious fucknuts,it's not even funny. Why does being a teenage girl mean that you have to be stupid,worry about being fat and have sexuality and gender issues? o_O Francis...is Francis-He automatically makes assumptions about me because I don't talk,kiss anyone's ass or bother fitting in. I don't fit in because I don't want to fit in. I have friends,a boyfriend and a life outside of my school,so why would I care if no one there knows or likes me,aside from Ali and Chloe? Ali doesn't think I'm an enigma because he's laid-back as hell. He isn't popular or unpopular,he isn't anti-social like me,but he doesn't go out of his way to party his ass off,either. He just sort of takes people as they are,which is actually kind of refreshing. :) Chloe is popular,but she's pretty cool. She actually bothers to acknowledge the little people's presence, she isn't vapid and empty-headed and she's not who she appears to be on the surface. She's just popular because she's attractive,she's friendly and she likes socializing. Why she dates Francis is beyond me-She's JUST a dumbass. She could easily do better and find herself a real man,yet she hangs around him. There's a lot more to me than people think. I'm not some weird loner who has nothing better to do on a Saturday night than homework,but I'm also not a slut who will put out just because some idiot has a car and a fake I.D. I'm not pretentious,I'm just an intellectual who hates being a teenager. If I met other kids my age who could challenge me in some way aside from Ali and Chloe,then maybe I'd bother enjoying my childhood. Current Mood: amused (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, April 1st, 2008
2:05 pm	Prompt #8 ( Prompt #8 ) Current Mood: pensive (Comment on this)
Saturday, March 8th, 2008
2:33 am	1. Are you a trusting person? Not at all-It's weird,because in San Francisco I trusted almost everyone. I just don't get along with my dad and his family and I don't trust the other kids at school,aside from people I'm working on my project with. I can't help it,seriously-They're so fake and snobby,their priorities are fucked up and so are their interests. Ok,so they're teenagers with raging hormones. So what? How does saying yes to everyone,regardless of their skills make them cool? Hell,how does letting a guy's approval matter that much make them liberated? x_X Also,how does being a good,sweet girl who pretends to be submissive and virginal help? Do they LIKE getting fucked over by some asshole who wanted to win a bet? o_O Hell,if the guy is so lame that he'd judge a girl who knew her shit,I don't care how good in bed he is. He DESERVES a prude who lays there like a dead fish. I'm sorry,but I'm probably the only one who never bought that Cruel Intentions b.s. God,even my author likes it-It was SUCH a stupid movie. It was exciting the first time because it dealt with adults in the ACTUAL time period it was written in. Why the hell would anyone behave like that today? Wtf kind of dumbass purposely alienates girls who know their shit by fucking them over and calling them a bitch or whore? Hell,who dates virgins for fun? x_X I'd bother ranting about guys,but everyone knows teenage guys are immature and full of shit,so what else is new? o_O Plus,I've never understood how being stupid makes you superior. If a guy raises his hand and does well in class,he can get away with being smart and attractive. If a girl even tries,either the other girls will give her shit or the guys will judge her. I don't know,maybe I'm just cynical because much like some of my author's other characters,I was used in stupid rpgs dealing with cliques. -_____- Thank fuck at least this time she's doing it for a point. If me being around dumbasses sends a message and proves a point,the so be it. I suppose it could be worse-I could be in her other stories. I really don't want to be around vampire mobsters and werewolves or creepy perverts who buy and sell women as slaves. I also don't want to go to a school where rap and murder is a form of punishment and people have babies in order to GRADUATE. O_O Ok,so they're supposedly a scarce people-I still don't get why rape is a form of punishment and people have to have babies. I mean,if humans have test tube babies and some of them are engineered,wtf? x_X Current Mood: blank (6 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, February 26th, 2008
11:15 pm	Prompt #7-Quote You do not have to be good. You do not have to walk on your knees For a hundred miles through the desert repenting. You only have to let the soft animal of your body love what it loves - Mary Oliver If I could ACTUALLY get someone to see this,I think I'd finally be happy. Even if it stays between me and the other person,it doesn't matter. For once,someone would finally get it and for one single moment,I'd have the one thing everyone wants but a few people get:Understanding and acceptance. Everyone I know is so,so full of shit,it's not even funny. Sure,I get accused of it too,but I never said I was perfect or that I knew what I was doing. I mean,does anyone? o_O I still remember time I got to interact with someone. I was in some rpg called players and I had to interact with one of the "cool kids". *rolls eyes* God,I hated that game-I hated that stupid bitch even more. I don't know who irritated me more-The stupid cow my author's friend was playing or the guy I was supposedly saving. Ugh...teenage guys are so FUCKING stupid and immature. -______- Why does everyone have to be a bitch or a good girl? A virgin or a whore? A brain or a ditz? WTF?! >:O Um...that's NOT how life works. I'm pretty sure on any given day,all of us can any one of those things. People aren't cartoon characters,they just are. I'm not a virgin,but I'm not a whore. I'm no lady,but I'm not white trash,either. I'm Avalon and its what I'd prefer to go by if it's all the same. Just because I'm a young women on the verge of adulthood with slightly more possession of her sexuality than your average teenager does not make me a whore. If anything,I have even more of a right to say no and push guys away. Why the hell would I waste my time on boys my age if none of them know what they're doing? o_O I once liked a boy my age-God,was I wrong about him. Not only was he,stupid,immature and full of shit,he automatically assumed he knew everything about anything,thought he was hot shit when it came to skateboarding and gave me grief about living in Park Avenue. Um...just because my parents are rich doesn't mean I have to be a stupid,spoiled,snobby bitch like that idiot I met at the party. Oh-whoop-de-FUCKING-doo,honey-You're a snarky bitch who gets spoiled and fucks everyone. You're just oh-so insightful,aren't you? Where'd you get your comebacks from-Gossip Girl,The. O.C. or One Tree Hill? I'm not even going to start on the guy I was saving. I felt sorry for him,but his stupid lesbian joke pissed me off. I get why guys like two girls,but that doesn't make it any less irritating when guys assume lesbians or bi girls will be gay for them. -_____- I'm proud of my sexuality and explore my animal instincts any and every time I get to. I'm NOT apologizing for owning it the best I can,failing to even try to meet anyone's expectations or getting on my knees and asking my parents and peers to approve of me or dub me good enough. Right about now I'd say the soft animal would love her some fluffy,sparkly toys to play with and an owner who ACTUALLY knows what he's doing,as opposed to sending me to obedience school. ;) Current Mood: mischievous (Comment on this)